I've spent the last few posts writing about teaching experiences, but tonight I want to write about how this recent endeavor has impacted the most important aspect of my life.
When I took this job, I never realized just how much it would change my life at home. Granted, I knew that I would have to adjust - heck, our whole time in the Navy has been about flexibility and learning to adjust - but this has just been completely different. I guess I thought that when you want something so badly, you just fall right into it. All the pieces and parts just come together. Everything fits. You don't have to work so hard - things just happen. Boy, was I wrong.
In the past week since I've started work we've: missed meals and baths, forgotten to brush teeth, missed out on story time, skipped meal time prayers, had frozen pancakes for dinner, and missed seeing Daddy before he left for work. Those are just the things I can think of! I'm sure there's more! Sadly, those are just the ones dealing with Bug. If I added in all the ones for my dear husband, the list would be even longer.
When I think about all these things, I start to see how much I've failed...and it's only been a week.
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6 comments:
Girl, you have not failed!!! Not at all!! Look at it like Navy life. You don't just walk in a new place and know it all. You have to find your way and see what works for you. Same here. It is all going to fall into place...eventually.
Watching you talk to parents last night sqeezed my heart. I could see the enthusiasm on your face and you set their minds at ease. You looked great and smiled. If I didn't know you, I'd be happy to leave my child in your care.
I'll be praying for you!!!
So--- a failure is doing what makes you happy?? A failure is feelin self worth and happiness for finally getting to use the skills you have?
Bologna-- Bug will adjust, he has been blessed to have super mom...but will be ten times more blessed having a happy fufilled Super Mom...
This guilt too shall pass.. it has too! See you soon
Kelly
Em, I agree with the last two girls . . . you have not failed. Like you said - it's only been a week - give your classroom and family life time to adjust. You know that Jeremy and Noah are behind you 100% in all you want to do with life. Plus, I know how wonderful of a person you are, what a devoted mother, a loving wife, and a genius teacher. To quote my favorite song when I'm blue . . . "the sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow . . ." I'll be thinking of you - Hugs, Amanda
Ok lady take it from me...you only fail when you don't try!
Believe me when I say Noah will be much better off having a mom that is fufilling her calling and doing what she loves to do.
I speak from many years of the motherhood guilt syndrome!
ok...that legacy one was from me..I was logged onto our family blog sorry.
Jill
Em, I'm praying for you! You're not a failure... Some things just take some adjustment. :) Hang in there!
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